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Salaam!
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Welcome to the home of the
“I am not Haraam” project - a blog created for
LGBTQ Muslims by LGBTQ Muslims.

Haraam is an Arabic word used in Islam to mean “forbidden”. This project has been started as a way for LGBTQ Muslims to stand up and proclaim that we will not allow our existence as LGBTQ Muslims to be erased any longer.
We are not kafirs, we are not deviant, our existence is not a sin. This is our space to say:
WE ARE NOT HARAAM.

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Call for submissions
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We’re calling for any Muslim who identifies as part of the LGBTQ spectrum to submit to this blog. Allies and supportive families of LGBTQ Muslims are also welcome and encouraged.
The theme for submissions is quite simply,
“I am not haraam”
(or “my son/daughter/lover/sibling is not haraam”).

We’d like you to share what it means for you to be an LGBTQ Muslim. You can tell us about your struggles, your everyday life, anything that makes you, you!

Submissions can take any form; text posts, audio posts, art work, poetry, video etc.

How do I submit? You can submit by clicking on “submit” at the top of the page or by emailing iamnotharaam@gmail.com

If you have any questions please don’t hesitate to message us.
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Please note: This is a positive space for LGBTQ Muslims. We will not publish or respond to any negative or hateful remarks. We will not respond to any message asking us to justify our existence as LGBTQ Muslims.
Asker Anonymous Asks:
I hope your medical transition goes well<3 as a muslim, or as just a person, i hope that everyone can be happy and satisfied with themselves :)
iamnotharaam iamnotharaam Said:

Thank you anon, we’re all hoping for the best as well.
Good luck to  :)

So I’ve always been one to search for what exactly I am. From a young age I began to have a feeling of being a girl, i always felt wrong the way that I was being conditioned to live as a child. I knew from the first time i could think to myself that I was a girl, but I couldn’t understand why no one would let be be who I was. 

As I progressed into teenage years, I threw that identity of being a transwoman to the back. I had always been told by my family that transgender people were really just Gay people in such denial that they have reverted to deluding themselves into thinking they are another sex. But, I knew to my self I was not a gay man, I had no interest in men, I was only interested in Women. What was I then, a transgender lesbian? Is that even a real thing? I thought i was just a stupid delusional kid, so i went on to live reluctantly as a man.

Later in my teen year, while searching I came across Islam. I had been raised by an agnostic Family, so I did not have a preconception as to what an Islamic family would say. My family however was very much transphobic and i was very much reluctant to let that information out. Meanwhile, I was struggling to justify my entry into Islam. All i had ever heard and gathered was that people like me where not welcome, and I immediately felt alienated. I struggled with it, often leaving only to come back. No matter the negative lash backs i got from fellow Muslims i tried to contact, I always felt like my place and my heart was with Islam. 

I’ve looked, i’ve prayed to help myself through these problems. Now I’m 18, and ready to begin a medical transition, and through it all, i feel like Allah has been watching over me. My experiences with Islam, at it’s core with myself, i feel good with it, i feel like this is what is right for me. I have never felt rejected by the Almighty, but always felt hopeful.

Asker maathangi Asks:
I'm sending this in hopes that you'll publish it and get the word out to everyone. I just want everyone to know to stay away from captainrizzla. He constantly harasses both my friends and I, he's extremely homophobic and supports execution, and he's very rude to everyone. I want everyone to know that he's dangerous, misogynistic and just down right bad. Please spread the word and if he follows you, PLEASE block him! I don't want anyone to have to deal with him b/c he's very toxic. Thank you!
iamnotharaam iamnotharaam Said:

Thank you for the warning!

kawrage:

[I]t did not occur to me that my Muslim-ness and my queerness were supposed to be at war with each other until I started performing these identities in semi-public ways. The exoticization, the Islamophobia, the disbelief at my existence – these are all manifestations of imagined narratives that are projected onto me and do not reflect an innate discordance of being. My queerness and my Muslim-ness do not need to be reconciled mostly because they cannot be disentangled from each other. I can’t remember ever not having been both.

My life.

Errday.

(via queermuslims)

Asker Anonymous Asks:
hi! so i’m a 16 yr old muslim from, well, southeast asia. and i’m quite sure i am a (lo and behold) bisexual! now, my mother has made it clear that she is disapproving of the lgbt thing and that there is a cure out there for this. now, she is a lovely person, but i dont think i can see her coming to terms with my sexuality and i really need her to because im very close to her and if she cannot accept me for who i am, im afraid she cannot accept me period. how do i come out without her hating me?
iamnotharaam iamnotharaam Said:

salaams, lovely.

my mom frowns upon LGBTQ* ‘lifestyle’ stuff, too. i could have given her an ultimatum on the premise that if she doesn’t come to grips w/ and be 100% supportive of my queerness, then she can have 0 part of my life ever.

that doesn’t work for me because 1. my family is pretty small and 2. she’s my ummie and i am very much a momma’s girl.

i have shed many tears about things i want to talk to her about, advise i want to accept from her, counsel i want to seek at her feet, and so on. what i have had to do is reach out and find that support and that love outside of my relationship w/ my mother while maintaining at least a working/small talk relationship w/ my mom.

mom will need time.

time and prayer so if you’re the praying type, then pray, inshaAllah. one thing about being human and honest with ourselves and with others is that we have to allow others to be human and open with us. this includes mothers.

coming out is over rated and pretty unnecessary if you haven’t come into yourself. if you are struggling to accept and love yourself, it can be hard for others to accept and love you.

now, you’re 16.

and you’re at a point where you are rapidly learning about yourself; you’re constantly evolving and changing. i don’t say that to say i think this is a phase or a fad. i say that because there are other things that will come up that will make it hard for you to feel like you can maintain any level of connedctedness w/ your mother, or with any adult, or even w/ any friend. inshaAllah you’ll pull thru it stronger and clearer.

i feel like i’m rambling so let me restate: do what you can/hit us up whenever as you work to accept and love yourself.

your mom is a person just like you are. it will take both of you time to heal and process. it probably feels like you’re alone but trust me you’er not.

love,

Kalani

Salaams, beloveds!

This is a poem written by a Queer person of faith. I listened to this poem and it was as if I were writing it about my own quest for faith and a position within my religious community.

I mean, swap Christ for Allah and there you have it. Give it a whirl and let me know how you feel/what you think.

Love and prayers,

Kal

<3

“Like Allah the Samad, same-sex couples do not procreate, but they love, they create, and they nurture relationships that are tied together not by an earthly womb but by Divine Compassion.”

-GHAZALA ANWAR: "Elements of a Samadiyyah Shariah"

ace-muslim:

I am asexual, aromantic, non-libidoist (no sex drive), and sex-repulsed. I have no attraction of any kind to men except rare instances of aesthetic attraction. I have never had a romantic or sexual relationship with a man, I do not want one, and I would not know how to navigate one. I am not willing or even able to have sex with a man and I do not believe I ever will be able. This is not something I can compromise on. This means that a romantic/sexual relationship with a man would be a site of oppression for me. Marriage is out of the question.

My religion includes teachings like, “Marriage is half the religion,” and “Marriage is part of my way and who goes away from my way is not of me.”

This is what it’s like being asexual and Muslim.

Marriage is not actually religiously obligatory in Islam. If you dig into enough detailed texts of jurisprudence, you’ll eventually find statements that it’s merely neutral and not even considered as recommended for people who do not experience desire. Marriage in Islam is understood largely as a way of regulating sexual desire and giving it a lawful outlet. If you don’t experience desire, you don’t have anything to regulate or need a lawful outlet for, thus the exhortation towards marriage is not really directed at you. Moreover, the “goes away from my way” saying was actually addressed to a married man who had turned away from his wife out of a misguided sense of piety. It was actually meant to say, “Your wife has a right on you, and it is part of the religion to give her her rights.” In another instance, the Prophet told a man who said he was unable to marry that it was OK to not marry and to follow a course of lifelong celibacy (the phrase translated as “castrate yourself” (!) could mean figuratively “live as a eunuch”) because God had written out that fate of inability for him (yes, I believe that God created me to be asexual).

In my searches, I also found this quote from an early mystic:

God has decreed neither marriage nor celibacy… But he has decreed integrity of heart, preservation of faith, a soul at peace, and the execution of commands needed for these… And if one’s healthful condition, integrity of heart, and peace of soul reside in celibacy, then that is better for him, since these are the things that are desired of marriage. If one can reach these without marriage, then celibacy causes no harm.

That’s talking to me right there. I could not find a healthful condition, integrity of heart, or peace of soul in marriage to a man. I take this quote as explaining the meaning of Quran 57:27, which says in part:

We [God] did not prescribe it [monasticism] for them except for seeking the good-pleasure of God.

I believe that through not subjecting myself to what would be a kind of psychic violence on me, but through pursuing a life of health, integrity and peace in celibacy, I am seeking the good-pleasure of God.

So, yes, there actually is a place for me as an asexual in Islam and I don’t need to fear that I’m somehow failing in my religion by not being able to marry.

But…

It took me years to find the handful of texts I’ve mentioned here, to find these interpretations. Many Muslims might not know about them or agree with the way I understand them. Even if they did, that’s an awful lot of explaining to do just to justify my being 40, single, and not planning to ever marry.

And then I have to explain that stuff in the first paragraph of this post. That, yes, it is possible for some people to innately have no interest whatsoever for sex. Even a lot of Western liberals seem to have trouble with that concept, judging from some of the reactions to asexuality. That I’m not just not interested in sex but that it would actually harm me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually to have to engage in it. That it’s because I am not straight, that God created some people to not be straight.

When your sexual orientation cuts you off from how your community or your society expects you to experience and express your sexuality, when you have to search for alternative interpretations and obscure texts to justify the existence of your sexual orientation and its validity within the religion, when you have to tell people that your sexual orientation is not “normal”, is not how they believe God created everybody to be, you’re queer.

I’m queer. As an asexual Muslim, I’m queer.

I’m still trying to figure out how to even have that conversation with anybody but LGBT Muslims, or if I ever will.

In the meantime, my not being married and not seeking marriage isolates me. Converts to Islam who don’t have a larger community they already belong to are often very marginalized in Muslim communities in America. Many can find a way in by marrying. But I can’t do that.

Being asexual and Muslim has often meant a profound loneliness and a silence about everything that made that loneliness. That’s a queer experience too, to be isolated and alone because of where your sexual orientation puts you, and to not be able to explain why.

And another thing is, strawberreli is pretty much the only other asexual Muslim I’ve come across even on Tumblr, except for a couple of blogs that have long since gone inactive. I’m glad I’m not the only one, but that’s really freaking lonely. I’m guessing that most of the other asexual Muslims (and yes, they exist and are out there) are like me, isolated and alone. Part of my motivation in finally writing this post is in case an asexual Muslim finds it and realizes they are not broken and not alone, not failing at the religion. There are a lot of answers I still don’t have, but I hope I can give someone that, at least.

ace-muslim:

A very long and detailed paper that covers a lot of ground. Part 1 sets out how Islamic jurisprudence works, while Part 2 explores a range of different arguments using the principles of Islamic jurisprudence to support the legitimacy of same-sex attractions, queer sexual orientations, and of same-sex marriage on grounds of equality, justice, and compassion.

(via queermuslims)